Tears in the Shower….A Poem From Wildfire

I cried my tears in the shower
The salt mixed with rain
I cried my tears in the shower
So no one could see my pain

I cried my tears in the shower
At the scars across my chest
I cried my tears in the shower
For my body lost, I loved it best

I cried my tears in the shower
One look in the mirror was hard to take
I cried my tears in the shower
At this remaining shell, this fake

Mourning a loss, never coming back
Knowing that changes are made
Permanent, temporary, sad for what is gone
Priorities of life now rearranged  

By Tina Conrad

Tina Conrad. Diagosed at 37. IDC, Stage III, ER+. Merchandise manager at Vera Bradley, podcast host. Tina is a five year breast cancer survivor. She is the host of the “DJ Breast Cancer” podcast, which is a “Girlfriend’s Guide” to breast cancer. Season One focuses on her breast cancer journey and is available on iTunes and Spotify. Season Two is focused on other survivor journeys and those making a difference in cancer. Tina’s mom is also a two-time breast cancer survivor. Tina is married to an amazing person, Jon. Together they love taking walks, Sunday car rides, and visiting local breweries. The one bright spot of breast cancer has been the sisterhood and support through local support groups and the Instagram breast cancer community. @djbreastcancer and djbreastcancer.org  

Editor’s Note: This piece has been republished with permission from WILDFIRE Magazine, the “Body” issue (Vol 4, No 3, Copyright (c) April 2019 by Wildfire Community LLC). More information available at wildfirecommunity.org.

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WILDFIRE Magazine is the only magazine for young women survivors and fighters of breast cancer under 45 years old. Headquartered in Santa Cruz, California, WILDFIRE is a beautiful, story-based bi-monthly magazine published on different themes relevant to young women survivors, from stage 0 to stage IV. Beautiful and ad-free! Visit  wildfirecommunity.org for more info.

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